Eating is Overrated
Monday was my first day back from my trip and I was pretty bummed leaving behind all those great people. Figured I'd try to feed my sorrows because a full belly has made me feel better in the past. For lunch I had leftover stuffed crust cheese pizza, Ruffles and dip. Didn't fulfill me. So I suggested One Man Band (Piper calls it Ban Ban) for dinner that night and got my regular chicken fried steak, gravy, baked potato and scone with honey butter (and a few swipes of my fork on Jack's pancakes and Piper's sausage). Nope. Still didn't feel better. Made me feel wasteful of all that food and money that paid for it. After that meal I had a light bulb moment: I do NOT feel better just because I eat something. Food is not the answer. Food does NOT make me happy. I LIKE to eat (everyone who knows me knows that; especially Erin wink wink) but this week I don't. Monday: stuffed crust pizza, chips, dip, chicken fried steak, baked potato, scone & scraps. Tuesday: Slimfast-style drink, Slimfast-style drink and a handful of mini-baby carrots. Wednesday: Slimfast-style drink and 6" turkey sub. Thursday: Slimfast-style drink, about 15 grapes and handful of almonds. Friday: Slimfast-style drink that I just finished with ibuprofen (threw out my back on Tuesday) I'm just NOT hungry. Plus, my back is in so much pain that I don't feel like getting up to prepare anything. Luckily the kids are either at school or Linda's playing (thank goodness for Linda - love YOU). So it's not like I'm white-trash mom laying on the couch ignoring my children :o) Then last night I took a nap at 6:45 (tired of all the pain). Woke about 10:30pm, watched School for Scoundrels (wouldn't recommend it but Billy Bob Thornton really does it for me) then jumped into the guest bed to go back to sleep because Piper was in mine and I couldn't move her. What in the world is going on with me?
9 comments:
Sounds like a bad case of voodoo dollitis. You haven't upset anyone lately have you?
Ooh, Lyle, maybe? I shouldn't have though... I'm very well liked everywhere I go ;o) Also, are you stalking me because I just BARELY posted this and you're already commenting. Maybe YOU have the doll.
I am an emotional non-eater, so I think I can relate. Nothing is wrong with you. You're just not hungry. Reminds me of the Mean Girls scene in the cafeteria, "girls who eat their feelings... girls who don't eat anything..."
But if you keep eating like that you're going to make something wrong with me. I, in contrast, had Cheeto Puffs, these little granola/peanut butter/M&M treats I got as Target (there came a point when I said to myself, "you know, 5 little treats make 1 big one"), and a Diet Coke for dinner last night.
Just ate 2 slices of ham, stick of cheese, some carrots and grapes (with another ibuprofen). Things are lookin' up!
Eating is fun! I find the more I worry about how I eat, the worse I eat. So I don't worry about it and things seem to go better for me.
I must say that nothing is more delicious than a scone from One Man Band. I am craving one so bad right now!
Get a heating pad.....or better yet, go sit in your suv with the seat warmers on and the stereo cranked.....I would then be sooooo stinkin' jealous (but only if there was a big fat diet pepsi in your cup holder)
Wish I could kiss it and make it better. Your back that is.
If your edible of choice is really Slimfast, why don't you at least try a Jamba Juice? They have a lot more joy packed inside than those diet drinks. Plus they smell better. Plus plus you can order an energy boost, femme boost, immunity boost, etc., etc. Maybe they even offer a bad back boost. I'm sorry you're in pain and uninspired by food too! Feel better!!
Your in a funk because you had such an awesome experience in California. It was eye opening, life changing... You got home and probably got a little sad and depressed. So now you just have to remember how you felt then and concentrate on feeling that way again... tell yourself "I loved that experience, thank you... I want to be inspired like that everyday" and strive to feel like that again. I'm glad your back safe and sound Shannon.
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